I'm not obsessed with Tokio Hotel!

I'm sorry my first blog has to be about this. But, I'm so sick to death of people accusing me of being obsessed with Tokio Hotel.

I had a bit of an argument with some random hater who made a youtube account purely for hating Tokio Hotel, and it went something like this:

ME: "You must lead such a sad life, to take out all your insecurity on 4 georgous talented boys who really don't deserve it. Two words: FUCK YOU!"

HIM: "the tragic part is that I DO have a life unlike you, an ignorant little girl who likes a band of 4 untalented ugly fags that fuck each other every day and earn millions because of you stupid little kids. two words: YOURE PATHETIC."

ME: "They make millions because they have a thing called : TALENT. They have millions of fans because they have TALENT - and not to mention good looks. We're not all 12 year old maniacs - you can be 40 and love Tokio Hotel. I really don't see what your problem is. Curb your jealousy, dickhead! "

Anyway it escalated into a really big fight that lasted for two days, and he finally left me alone, saying this.

"eveything's about tokio hotel huh? youre very obsessed as far as i can see. i was like this before, i loved green day and i still do but i wont reply to a hater cause its just not worth it. nobody's gonna spoil my day and especially someone on youtube. i think you just take this too personally. anyway... i dont think this is going anywhere i think youre very offended so im not gonna keep insulting you."

I'M NOT OBSESSED!!!!
I'M NOT!!!!

Anyway, enough about that horrible twat face man.

I'm trying to write songs, but I'm crap. I'll usually come up with a nice bridge, and then I'll hear it a few times and hate it. It's really annoying! It just comes so naturally to some people. I am not some people. I find excedingly difficult to pour my heart out into a song, because I'm naturally very uptight. There's this girl on youtube, and she can write an amazing song in like half an hour. I've been doing it half my life, and I can't even come up with a basic melody. No wonder I'm failing english :S

She's awesome by the way, look her up, she's called J'Lostein as an artist, and her real name is Jamie.

But, god! I don't get it, I've always had an acceptable singing voice (nothing special though), and I play guitar and a bit of piano and I could probably do bass as well. I'm one of the most musical people I know in person, and yet I can't write a song, I can only cover. And I can't even do that for the moment, until I get another computer mic. It sucks!

Also, it's four in the morning.

I should probably go to sleep, ja?

Well, that kinda concludes my first blog post, then, although I don't think I'll be posting again for a while, thank my mother.

I'll try and post over half term though, I've been meaning to start a blog for ages!

Gute nacht x x